Ah, long time no blog.

一言难尽。

Haii. My life has never been as multifaceted and diverse and colourful as now. But past the initial novelty and seemingly inexhaustible enthusiasm about everything, i'm beginning to feel the plateauing and wearisomeness. I wonder if i've just gotten used to the order amidst the chaos, and maybe getting bored of this routine.

I'm taking this quite personally, i dont really know why, but i find MMI in a distressing state of affairs now.

Well well. I was not directly involved in this, but now i am implicated in the aftershocks. But since some time ago, i had the sneaking feeling something was amiss. Above all, this just shows that my/our instinct was right.

And ultimately we are all living for ourselves (this line can be seen as utterly redundant, because how can we live for anyone else, but ourselves? - but sometimes, we do need a timely reminder even for the most straightforward and important axiom, because we are often haplessly trapped in our blinding oblivion) and yah well, it is some fate that we encounter certain things and people, and things/people come and go.

I am suddenly disillusioned and consequently, depressed by the fact that it is damningly difficult to find a job/vocation that you like, have cooperative, dynamic and can-click co-workers and just enjoy your work - be efficient, foresighted and open-minded, value-add as much as possible, take every problem as a challenge, learn and do better, and take ownership and pride in whatever you do. That is my half-baked mantra for my take on the Woeful Working World.

Haii anyway talk one big round, the crux, is... 2 of our permanent staff are leaving. This in-between period of knowing-they-are-confirmed-leaving and serving-the-notice is damn awkward and uneasy, and for the first time, i am not entirely looking forward to going to office. While i would like to treasure every day that they are still around, it's also reciprocative that every day they are here, is one less day that they will be around.

Like how everyday we are around, is one less day that we will be around.

This is so vastly different from 3 months ago. Really. Wow. Amazing. But more in a bad way, actually, looking at the general turn of events. :(

Quoting my most unlikely and yet fateful friend,
"This feels like a very bad chess game and i dont want to play on."