Ok it's confirmed. I'm not going in tomorrow.

Ah well it was good while it lasted. :)

Friday - Sun morning were... weird. Ok Sat was good coz i was too occupied with skating to think of other things, and anyway i think this week's sessions were one of the best, in terms of my feeling of comfort and at-ease-ness around them.

Anyway. Friday.

Morning i felt very redundant because i had finished all the work i had, on Thursday. And ok honestly i could have not come in on Friday, if they really need to cut costs.
Then after their weekly Friday monring meeting, Alex/Dalong announced that i was staying.
In the afternoon, i was given a new phone-call assignment, so i was told to read the AOGS brochures and familiarize myself with what i'm supposed to be calling up embassies (SOUNDS IMPORTANT RIGHT) and selling.

At 6, Dalong called me for a Meeting In The Pantry. Told me about the new payscheme. It was appalling. But i think i reacted surprisingly calmly. Actually for some reason it wasnt unexpected. But it was my Worst Case Scenario. But my Plan A had always been, "Please dont let it happen,"

Left office without giving a definite yes/no, hence didnt really say any formal goodbyes. Then went with Liyan to meet Shanti for dinner. It was a rather heavy and moody dinner, though at times i was also laughing until i cried. Extreme emotional tsunamis crashing around inside my head.

Fretted over Fri night and by Sat night, i decided and emailed Dalong, saying i wont be able to continue with this new payscheme. I wrote him a rather long email, not exactly formal, but it would be what i would say if we talked face to face.

Then he sent me as SMS this morning, when i was on my way home from guitar. Then i fretted the whole afternoon. While fretting though, i still managed to make a relatively clear-headed decision to invest $925 on a 5D4N Clubmed Phuket trip with Sirui Xinli and Gwen. So we're going on 11-15May. :)
Replied Dalong's SMS when i was on the bus on my way to meet them in town before we went to confirm the booking.

Then fretted throughout dinner. Still fretting now.

It doesnt help anything, but i also cannot help feeling like that now.

Should money/pay be my topmost priority? Even if it's not, i cannot accept something insultingly low, right.
Is this "experience" worth it? To make up for the loss of tangible cash reward. But i wont be taking conference management.
A major boon is that they can accommodate my Wednesdays off, where i go and take on the Convo Chinese lessons. (As a punishment for my previous life.) And the environment at office is nice, with a nice toilet. That is very important. And of course, ok the biggest pro is probably being able to go to office in tshirt and jeans and sometimes shorts, and in sneakers. Everyday.
Damn it this is such a bad time- when i can finally get an interesting assignment, i am leaving already. After having completed the mind-numbing barely-educated-also-can-do kind of mundane data-mining.
Have i overestimated my self-worth? Measured in monetary terms. Shit it man, it sucks to be simply a unit of labour.

I was happily relatively job-less, until this came along. Now i feel compelled to find something else to replace this. But the most chagrining is, fret, i do like working in MMI.

But now it's time to move on.

Aah. At least i get to sleep in. Good night everybody. :(